I hope everyone has had a good week so far. Thank god its almost Friday!! Weekends are still currently what I look forward to the most as I am working my daytime job until further notice.. I am doing UberDriver so I do get to make my own schedule which is very nice given all of my doctor appointments but my hours are nuts and weekends are usually quieter and slower for me, thank goodness!
You know, this year has already been filled with so many new things and the start of beautiful new beginnings, which has been such a positive change for me and such a breath of fresh air! However, there are still some things I want to put more effort and focus on. We all may not need to work on improving the same specific things in our lives but some of you may very well feel like you can relate in the things I want to work and focus on improving in my life. Me personally, I have struggled with anxiety and depression as well as panic attacks for quite some time now and dealing with all of that, my sleep you could say is a little bit fucked up. Grieving the loss of the love of my life also doesn’t do me any favors there. Oh and like I said, I do Uber and my specific hours are almost always early ass mornings. I end up staying up late, get done early morning and then come home and go right back to sleep. After I sleep half my day away, all I want to do before going back to sleep for bed is stare at the tv though… And lately that is what I’ve been doing.
Sticking to a routine has always been super hard for me but I really want to start getting better at having a routine not only at night but weekly and monthly routines as well (i’ve been working with my therapist the last week on getting a nice routine set up for me and making sure I’m doing a variety of things every single day)!
Things like turning my tv and phone off, just sitting and meditating a bit before bed. I think that would be good for my soul and honestly just my mental well being! One app I find helpful, is the H*nest Meditation app! Forewarning, if you don’t have a potty mouth like I do, then you may not like this particular meditation app🤣🤣
One other thing I want to start doing every night is being present and remembering to tell Tyler goodnight and that I love him. You know, the books by Concetta Bertoldi saved me last year through this grief. Knowing he is still here, just in a different form and can still see, hear and know everything, makes all the difference in the grief and healing process. Knowing I can still talk to him and he hears every single thing I say to him is just so comforting to know and makes my heart a little less broken. I tend to have squirrel brain over here though so thats my problem with forgetting and not remembering every night. I’ll link a few of my favv Concetta Bertoldi books below for any new readers who haven’t read prior posts and I promise, you won’t regret getting any of her books!! Here soon I will 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻 have my LIKEtoKNOW.it all set up so that you can shop all my must haves easy in one spot!! Hopefully my ideas to improve my routines can help you with some routine ideas if you are struggling with that too!
Do Dead People Watch You Shower? by Concetta Bertoldi
Inside the Other Side by Concetta Bertoldi
As always,
Talk soon…
XO
Lauren
